Today Has Been Strange.

I don't particularly like strange. I dunno. It took me a while to wake up this morning.

Last night, I read some crime files. One on Jeffrey Dahmer, and one on the Murder of Shanda Sharer. That was very scary. How could people be so sick? I don't understand it at all.

I'm so happy! Guess what! I get to go feed the homeless tomorrow. :D

:) Let all the Nations Hear and be Glad.

I just got through listening to John Piper's sermon called Declare His Glory Among the Nations.

And it's true! We were MADE to go out and continue what Jesus started.

The Great Commision was not a request, or a calling, as some like to think that only certain parts of the Bible apply to them.
Jesus said, "Go, and make disciples of ALL of the nations." (my emphasis.) GO. Not, if you think you are supposed to go, go. Just one word.

GO.

Bittersweet Symphony

I love that song. Bittersweet Symphony.
Well anyway, to the point..
I have finished my Bible study, A Glory Revealed by David Nasser. It's a time of celebration! I have actually finished something all the way through!! So that means that I can! AHAHA.
At this time, I am inbetween bible studies and am due to begin A Call to Die, by David Nasser, tonight or tomorrow. I am very excited. :)
Along this journey, however, it involves fasting. I have chosen to fast from Secular Media, including but not limited to: Secular music, tv, internet (So I can still blog about it, haha.) and video games. I may be able to see a movie every once in a while, but nothing that could raise my eyebrows in a "Oh, nonooo. That is very bad" kinda way. No rated R.
I have decided I will not ban books for the sole fact of that I have to be able to read to complete this bible study, and school comes up soon enough, so yeah.
So, No MYspace, Facebook or anything. All secular media. No TV. No radio that is not Christian.

But I do not count this as loss, dear brothers and sisters, for to really and truly live is Christ, and to die to myself is gain. I need to make myself LESS to make MORE of JESUS.
Does that make sense to you?
I'll keep you posted.

All the love!

---B---

Constantly on Edge

Like I learned at camp this year, it has been a constant daily struggle- a daily choice, to take up my cross and keep walking. There are days when I don't feel like going on, and some days, I don't. I'm sticking with it though- although we have so many things in our world- that just love to take our attention away, I'm still fighting and striving to stay away from the cliff. I don't want to go back. I don't want to fall again. I climbed back, and now I know I can do it. God has put a desire so big inside of me, that it is just bursting out. I want to go now more than ever. But I have to wait. I have to bide my time and use it well. I'm still preparing, and I need to become stronger in my faith, root myself even deeper.

Saying that, I am actually more rooted in my walk with God than I EVER have been. It's the best I've felt in a long time. I know I have a purpose, and I keep on going. But advancing further down the narrow path only makes everything harder. Satan is still trying to catch me in his grip, I still can feel him grasping at me. But I won't let go of God. I can't. I've caught a glimpse. Even though it's a tiny glimpse, it's a glimpse of something so magnificent, woven so beautifully, that it takes my breath away even to this day.

The heavens declare the glory of God; the skies proclaim the work of his hands. Day after day they pour forth speech; night after night they display knowledge. There is no speech or language where their voice is not heard. Their voice goes out into all the earth, their words to the ends of the world. Psalm 19:1-4

Everytime I think of what God has done for us, what Jesus died for, I am so thankful.

I've learned to say "It is well with my soul."

And though the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling

How can I keep from singing Your praise?
How can I ever say enough?
How amazing is Your love!
How can I keep from shouting Your name?
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing!

I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives
And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sing the songs You give
I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne

How can I keep from Singing- Performed and written by Chris Tomlin

I want my eyes to be opened. I am a barbarian, struggling, imperfect and radical. I want to change people's perspective of God, show them how magnificent He truly is.